The leap

The Saints said that the world is ready to engulf you in its enormity.

Now when I stand in the open spaces, and ponder over it. I realise how true this is. Living a sheltered life from past many years had concealed me from what the older people than called, life. I was more like a chick who had just come out of an egg and had started exploring the multi shades of the environs around.

My grandpa had asked once what I thought life was I didn't give him an answer then, it seemed too footling or maybe I was too ignorant to understand it then.

Earlier it was the innocence of school, birthday parties, barren fights and the family junkets. Then came the four years of college, lectures, exams, unplanned trips, spins, friends, booze, music and of course blogging…all this was Life, for me at least.
A carefree life which I dictated on my terms and where I was the master of my own Universe and then one fine day things started mopping up… My results were out, I was elated but wait, s*** I was a graduate now and had to join my job pretty soon.

When I looked around I realised my life wasn't about me rather there was a stack of expectations behind me maybe the tint of my goggles had never let me see the things clearly. 

Amid, all this it felt as if the people around were trying to push me into the crowd, in the swarm of those millions who had no identity of their own and work like machines day in and out but, then certain things are just not tolerable and the inner you gets into discord with the outside world.