A jovial start

It’s 11 at night and it seems to be a start...Beginning of the night ahead.

“Half of my heart” by John Mayer plays and I sing along. Though I hardly have the kind of voice you would like to hear but still I like singing, at least to me.

It has been more than a month since my exams got over and college ended but still the feeling hasn't sink in.

I don’t know why it still feels the same: post exam break, idling around at home and looking forward to getting back to hostel. Though all this has recently ended but the memories are still afresh and here I realize that memories are indeed a treasure for lifetime. But, then one needs to budge forward in life.

Now finally after this more than a month long stay at home, I am ready to hop into a new phase and embark on a new beginning. It is after three years that I have stayed at home this long (was a little difficult though, to give in my freedom but then Home is where the heart is!).

It’s the time when I’m socially active. Every new day I end up meeting a new cousin or a new aunt and in the Kashmiri families there is no end to all this savoir-faire stuff! (Mind you there isn't any sarcasm intended ;) Anyways amid all this I learnt a little cooking though nothing mouth-watering-ly delicious but one can digest it without much torture. Mum says practice makes one perfect so people around me need to go through the ordeal till I become a fine cook.

Then there was this new finding (a sad one though), I realised there is a side to me which ought to be looked into: that is being spontaneous. I sometimes get into the binge and then suddenly withdraw when things become hard to handle or just when something inside says Quit (Melodramatic this might sound). I hope people around don’t murder me for this attitude of mine. 

Perfection is a flaw, so why be perfect. Rather love yourself the way you are and try finding bliss. 

Doing Nothing

There are times when we don't have anything to do and all the work we have is doing "nothing" and believe me from past few weeks I have been really busy...Busy doing nothing!!

There has been no college, no lectures and no practicals (bliss it might seem to the freshers). Even the teachers want us to have all the fun ;) and they make it a point to put in the least of their efforts which could pull us back to the classes. But then who cares, we Indians have this inherent quality of utilizing our time in the best possible way...by doing nothing!!

Doing nothing is also an art; ask the western people who can never sit idle. They are always engaged in one thing or the other. Back in January I met one of my cousins who puts up in Auckland and was back home on vacations that too after a strenuous internship of six months and what left me not really amazed was that even on vacations he joined some silly animation course just to make a proper use of free time. I wonder why can't people once in a while resent from indulging themselves in any kind of work and sit back, enjoy the stillness. 
No doubt life needs to be active...like the flowing water which appears more pleasing than the still water. But, then how many of us have felt the pleasures of laying  below the sidereal sky in its captivating depths, how many of us have sat on the top of a mountain with music playing in the ears and felt the stillness of a early winter morning and felt the balmy breeze.

Even such phases of doing nothing help us in discovering the self at times. Imagine I realized I had an artist hiding deep within who could draw more than those conventional snow covered hill tops with sun shining in between, those cylindrical huts with triangular roofs and of course not to miss my favorite coconut trees. Even the Gods would have cried seeing the havoc created in my paintings earlier (coconut trees in a snow covered landscape) But, then this is creativity…and creativity has no limits!

Anyways coming to the point I did some decent glass painting.

Nonetheless these days of doing nothing would really be missed especially in mid may when the semester exams will be overhead and it would be exam madness all around!